Thursday, October 17, 2013

The Sad Ballad of Jack and Jill

In the summer of 2011 I wrote this song. I was in camp Weona and it was shortly after Paige had gotten into a relationship with that one dirt bag. I found out though Facebook after two weeks practically of not talking to her, It hurt alot.

I just went though one of my art journals one of my favorites and found it again and figure I would post it here.

 The Sad Ballad of Jack and Jill
We're almost done here
He walked her out back
To their shed
Metal pressed against her head.

*We're almost done here
We're almost done dear
We're almost done here-I've got feeling
it's fact. We're almost done here.

They met at young age. At that
instant he knew.
and at that
instant she couldn't know how that love quickly grew
But the years would come
and plainly show
how Destiny got a way of tying one from two

*We're almost done here*

They were split for several years
He came back to many of tears
They all warned and warned but he knew what he was getting into
We're almost done here

They were married in their 27th year
Two kids
 one like him and one like her
and happily they lived
but Time has a funny way of making lies.

*We're almost done here*


He stormed out to the nearest bar
and tried in vain to drown his heart
He couldn't wouldn't live his life apart
He figured what to do
and his storm followed outside.

Oh, we're almost done here
This I promise
soon we'll come to the epic finish.
We're almost done here

Now he found the two in his house
and all three knew what he was to do
She opened her mouth as hot lead flew
He grabbed her by the hair and dragged out into the night
He looked in her eyes.




They knew there was no going back


She knew she was wrong



He knew he was wrong


neither knew a second so long.

We're almost done here
he said as he digged
We're almost done here
dirt on her face
We're almost done dear
I got a feeling it's a fact.
We're all done here.




So there's that.

I edited a bit from it's original but not too much. I used know and knew way too much.

Just as a note this was constructive way of alleviating my emotions.
I do not plan on murdering anyone.

I found one more song, but god is it aweful, I think I wrote it when I was 15 maybe 16

anyways here have this

Cocktease
She's got emberal eyes and the perfect lips, the sweetest voice boy does she make noise
She kills when she whines your name/ if you askyou'd fall to your names, but boys you should give it up so easily
Cause she is just one hot  Cocktease
Oh just one hot Cocktease
wouldn't acknowledge ya even if you begged, BABY please

(OAAH) with the perfect ass she's a sight to see[walk past] with that [crazy][sweet] motion, you can't help but to swing along way after she is gone

If you asked, you'd fall to your knees but boys look out
Cause she is just one hot Cocktease
oh justo ne hot cocktease 
wouldn't notice ya even if you begged BABY, please

-I then wrote down "go crazy haha" probably like gutiar solo and screeching, the song is influenced by Jet.-

She'll drive you crazy cause you can look but never touch
she doesn't need make up she naturally shines, not to mention her prissy behind
but guys we're all out of luck 
cause she is just one hot cocktease
just one hot cocktease
-then I go on and on in an axel roseques fade out-
Oh baby please



You know what fuck it that song is awesome. and I am awesome.
Have a great night

Keith

Friday, August 2, 2013

If it didn't happen on camera it never happened.



Insiped by the worst Aurgmentive Research paper topic ever, I decided to begin a published list of all the movies I have, or at least remember seeing. Some entries that belong to a series such as terminator or Star Wars, include all the films in the said series unless stated otherwise, such as the Halloween films. Double entries dictate whether it was the remake or the orginal. Luckily most remakes have a second part to their title or new titles entirely. this is a living document and will be updated regular.






In no particular order yet


Escape From New York


Escape From LA


Blade Runner


Die hard


Holy Grail


star wars


Casablanca


It happened one night


Wonderful life


star trek


Man on fire


predator


serenity


Aladin


Snow white


Sleeping Beauty


little mermaid


Loin King


Toy story


up walle


bugs life


cars brave


how to train your dragon


toranado


EarthQuake


Godzilla


seven samari


11 assassins


Ninja warror


Path of the warrior


Fists of the dragon


enter the dragon


Airplane


Airport


Indiana Jones


Picture Bride


Crash


Syriana


Green Mile


Red Mile


Longest yard


pocahuntas


Lion in the winter


King Henry


Mouse Trap


Face off


Demolition man


Running man


elevethn Hour


Point Blank


Ploint Blanc Gross


all dogs go to heavan


Dragon heart


Brave Heart


Spy Kids


Bionicle


Pumkin Head


Wrong turn


The Lake


the Shining


Roxanne


Carrie


the one about to ladies Lucie and whatever


Connie and Bolyd


Once were Warriors


American History X


The Birth of a Nation


The Departed


Total Recall


Terminator


The Bridge


Bridge of terbyiertha


Jamanji


Pooh and the dumb cave


Transformers


Speed


Constintine


Hellboy


Pan’s Lyberth


The Orphange


Grave encounters


Super


Identies


HellRaiser


Zombie Land


Stakeland


Dino Island


old Dino island


King Cobra


King Cobra verus super croc


super croc


super octopus


octshark


Deep Blue


Pulp Fiction


Inglorious Bastards


Kill Bill


Tokyo Drift


Fast and Furious


Hackers


Mr and Mrs. Smith


Journey to the center of the Earth


Journey to the Moon


Gold Rush


Psycho


American Psycho


American Pie


Euro Trip


Office Space


Idoitucracy


wedding Haze


Surf’s Up


Ice Age


March of the Peguins


Wanted


King Bo


The King and I


Singing in the Rain


Tarzan


Tarzan:King of the Jungle


Jungle book


Disney’s Animated Jungle Book


Disney’s Jungle Book


Fox’s Jungle Book


Iron Man


Spiderman


Thor


Captian America


Pacific Rim


Avengers


X-men


Wolverine


X-men: First class


Superman


Superman Returns


Newest Superman


Batman(all)


Catwomen


Fantstic Four


the Room


Troll


Night of the living dead


Land of the living Dead


Return of the living Dead


Day of the Dead


Dawn of the Dead


Survival of the living Dead


Alien


Aliens


Aliens verus Predators


Predators


Butch Cassidy and the Sun Dance Kid


Fistful of Dollars


Monkey Wrench


Monkey Bone


Roller Ball


Centienal Man


the Bioncle man


Bird Cage


The used carsales man movie with Robin Williams


A.I


The happening


Sixth Senth


Indestructible


Signs


Lady in the Water


Hills have Eyes


Chainsaw massacare


Jason x and I think four


Halloween


House of wax


House of Pain


House of the living dead


House of horrors


Paranormal Activity/Entity


Para Norman


Nightmare before Christmas


Corpse bride


Charlie and the Chocolate factory


Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory


Eragon


Lord of the Rings


Hobbit


Warehouse


Precint 13


13 blocks


Four Brothers


Two Christmas


kris Kringle


Bride Wars


How to Lose a Guy


10 things I hate about you


Norbert


Pluto Nash


Doctor Dolittle


Nutty Professor


The neighbors


Keeping up with the Jones


Honey I shrunk the kids


Honey I shrunk us


Disturbia


Charlie’s Angels


A Christmas Story


A miracle on 25th Street


It’s a Wonderful life


Best Years of our lives


Rebel without a cause


Crypt Keeper


Tomb Raider


Goonies


Teenage Ninja Turtles


Omega Force


Alpha Force


Octagon


Left Behind


Behind Enemy Lines


Seal Team Six


Zero Dark Thirty


Hurt Locker


Four Kings


Sunshine


Event Horizon


Space Odyssey


The Odyessey


Troy


300


Alexander


Caesar


Romeo and Juliet


The ballad of Romeo and Juliet


Knight’s Tale


Maid in Manhattan


60 Seconds


Searchers


True Grit (both)


Hercules


101 Dalmations


Lady and the Tramp


Hunchback of Norte Dame


Public Enemy


Born Killers


Red


The Professional


Down by the Dockyard


Raging Born


Blackmail


The crow


Black Crow


Sherlock Holmes


Hellsing


League of Extrodiare Gentleman





Watchmen New York


Midwest


Main point


Die hard


Holy Grail


star wars


Casablanca


It happened one night


Wonderful life


star trek


Man on fire


predators


serenity


Aladin


Snow white


Sleeping Beauty


little mermaid


Loin King


Toy story


up walle


bugs life


cars brave


how to train your dragon


toranado


EarthQuake


Godzilla


seven samari


11 assassins


Ninja warror


Path of the warrior


Fists of the dragon


enter the dragon


Airplane


Airport


Indiana Jones


Picture Bride


Crash


Syriana


Green Mile


Red Mile


Longest yard


pocahuntas


Lion in the winter


King Henry


Mouse Trap


Face off


Demolition man


Running man


elevethn Hour


Point Blank


Ploint Blanc Gross


all dogs go to heavan


Dragon heart


Brave Heart


Spy Kids


Bionicle


Pumkin Head


Wrong turn


The Lake


the Shining


Roxanne


Carrie


the one about to ladies Lucie and whatever


Connie and Bolyd


Once were Warriors


American History X


The Birth of a Nation


The Departed


Total Recall


Terminator


The Bridge


Bridge of terbyiertha


Jamanji


Pooh and the dumb cave


Transformers


Speed


Constintine


Hellboy


Pan’s Lyberth


The Orphange


Grave encounters


Super


Identies


HellRaiser


Zombie Land


Stakeland


Dino Island


old Dino island


King Cobra


King Cobra verus super croc


super croc


super octopus


octshark


Deep Blue


Pulp Fiction


Inglorious Bastards


Kill Bill


Tokyo Drift


Fast and Furious


Hackers


Mr and Mrs. Smith


Journey to the center of the Earth


Journey to the Moon


Gold Rush


Psycho


American Psycho


American Pie


Euro Trip


Office Space


Idoitucracy


wedding Haze


Surf’s Up


Ice Age


March of the Peguins


Wanted


King Bo


The King and I


Singing in the Rain


Tarzan


Tarzan:King of the Jungle


Jungle book


Disney’s Animated Jungle Book


Disney’s Jungle Book


Fox’s Jungle Book


Iron Man


Spiderman


Thor


Captian America


Pacific Rim


Avengers


X-men


Wolverine


X-men: First class


Superman


Superman Returns


Newest Superman


Batman(all)


Catwomen


Fantstic Four


the Room


Troll


Night of the living dead


Land of the living Dead


Return of the living Dead


Day of the Dead


Dawn of the Dead


Survival of the living Dead


Alien


Aliens


Aliens verus Predators


Predators


Butch Cassidy and the Sun Dance Kid


Fistful of Dollars


Monkey Wrench


Monkey Bone


Roller Ball


Centienal Man


the Bioncle man


Bird Cage


The used carsales man movie with Robin Williams


A.I


The happening


Sixth Senth


Indestructible


Signs


Lady in the Water


Hills have Eyes


Chainsaw massacare


Jason x and I think four


Halloween


House of wax


House of Pain


House of the living dead


House of horrors


Paranormal Activity/Entity


Para Norman


Nightmare before Christmas


Corpse bride


Charlie and the Chocolate factory


Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory


Eragon


Lord of the Rings


Hobbit


Warehouse


Precint 13


13 blocks


Four Brothers


Two Christmas


kris Kringle


Bride Wars


How to Lose a Guy


10 things I hate about you


Norbert


Pluto Nash


Doctor Dolittle


Nutty Professor


The neighbors


Keeping up with the Jones


Honey I shrunk the kids


Honey I shrunk us


Disturbia


Charlie’s Angels


A Christmas Story


A miracle on 25th Street


It’s a Wonderful life


Best Years of our lives


Rebel without a cause


Crypt Keeper


Tomb Raider


Goonies


Teenage Ninja Turtles


Omega Force


Alpha Force


Octagon


Left Behind


Behind Enemy Lines


Seal Team Six


Zero Dark Thirty


Hurt Locker


Four Kings


Sunshine


Event Horizon


Space Odyssey


The Odyessey


Troy


300


Alexander


Caesar


Romeo and Juliet


The ballad of Romeo and Juliet


Knight’s Tale


Maid in Manhattan


60 Seconds


Searchers


True Grit (both)


Hercules


101 Dalmations


Lady and the Tramp


Hunchback of Norte Dame


Public Enemy


Born Killers


Red


The Professional


Down by the Dockyard


Raging Born


Blackmail


The crow


Black Crow


Sherlock Holmes


Hellsing


League of Extrodiare Gentleman


Watchmen


Escape to Witch Mountian(only the classic)


That Darn Cat

Attack the Block

Lock Stock and two smoking barrels

Aces

Lace and Arsenic

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Letter of myself.

Alright, just to give some context about this post. My Great Aunt Susan Consey, from my mom's mom side, wrote me a facebook message waking me up at 5 AM concerning one of my FB posts. This is the said message:

Keith I just saw a post (of yours) can' t find it now... But it was about the pope. It's these times that I feel so far away... I guess cuz I really don't know you or who you were... Of if you want me to know you or the things you might be thinking of? There are times when just being a g-aunt isn't what you've been thinking.

At first I was just going to ignore it for a while... okay yes I was awake at 5 am when she sent this. But when I woke up this morning I decided I might as well answer her in full. Thus I typed out this monster.

Yeah, I have had a unique life due to my dad's career, it sorta has distanced me from the rest of my relatives. Currently who I think I am is someone who likes a good joke, I can seem very mean and rough, sometimes borderline rude but really I am just struggle with the generous sweetheart I have always been as a child and my developing desire to longer being walked all over by the rest of the world. I like to believe I am very intelligent and bright, I have a higher then normal reading comprehension rate and I can retain information incredibly well. I am very good at reading people, picking up their personalities, traits and I have a strong complicity for empathy. I pride myself in always always trying to think like another and seeing the world though someone else eyes first before making a decision concerning them. Recently I have gotten very good at obtaining free stuff from my friends. I guess I have become a pro moucher? Not something I am too proud of but I never ask for anything everything is always offered. Recently I have put more stock in the idea that if you need something if you wait long enough and sorta hold faith, the universe will somehow provided it. My religion is hard to explain. I would say I am agnostic. My relationship with any god has become very shaky. I try talking to him or it or anything all the time. Generally questions, like why am I here, or what is the path I am suppose to follow? I ask the path question all the time. Sometimes I get an answer, like an epiphany, or sometimes it's shown to me, like I run into an opportunity. I feel like it is very important for me to stay on this path, like it is the reason why things are provided to me. I don't know what dictates the path. Be it the Judo-ichristian-islamic God or fate, but all the same I ask for guidance and try to stay on course. I have a strong sense of morals, based off of a combination of my love for Japanese honor codes, medieval chivalry, my dad's military background and my light catholic upbringing. 1.regardless of my faith I follow the ten commandments, they make sense in terms of running a society. 2.Owe anyone little maintian a balanced relationship 4. ALL humans are equal, just in far different ways 4. Stick to the path. 5. Hold open doors, say thank you everytime, and look people in the eyes, 6. Give what you can to those with nothing. 7.Take only what is given. I love film. I LOVE story telling and I love exploring human nature though it. I daydream all the time my oscar acceptance speech. I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I have a hard time planing into the future and I can barely think past tomorrow. I am terrible with money. I don't save nearly as much as I should. which is probably not true as I currently place 2/3 of my paycheck into a savings account and I have already begun my IRA. I just have an immense fear of the future. It is almost crippling. Also I am a terrrible student. I will blow homework, I mean it I will literally just not do it and not take any steps to save my grade. I have had four Fs my college career. I just allow myself to self dustruct. However any class I don't have an F in I get an A or at the very least a B. Inconsistences in the education system. I am extremely lazy. But for the right cause I will work as hard or harder than anyone. I am an Eagle scout, I take pride in that. I support Homosexual marriage. All people are equal, and I know several same sex couples who are far more loyal and caring than most marriages that exist. I think the government is without a doubt 100% a police state and trying to kill a huge majority off. I believe pop culture has become engineered to dumb us down. I believe in extraterrestrial life, as it is statistically impossible for it not to exist. Though I have little faith in organized religion I love studing in it. So far I have taken four Religion classes, Aced all of them. They were one of the few classes I put more then minimum effort.
thats another thing. I am a minimum effort person. that should be rule 4. I think. Do the minimum. Kinda of a Daoist approach. Don't be a rock that struggles against the current, be the leaf that allows the river to take it downstream. Follow the path with minimum effort.
Most of my thoughts are philosophical in nature. How do we know, what is truth, again what is my purpose. Though I love to play out narratives in my head, I have a very strong imagination. It ties into the storyteller in me. Just recently about three years ago I met a girl and feel into what I thought was love. however things did not work out at all. She sits in my mind. I constantly run the events though my head over and over again, most times I am not even aware i started doing it. It is torturous and I have really only just now started getting over it. There's been other girls in between her, but you know not the same. She has changed a lot the last year and half and it kinda feels like one of my best friends has died and been replace with someone totally different. I'd say 45% of my Facebook status are secretly about her. I think soon someone new will appear in my life. I keep getting this feeling like I am going to be somewhere and just sorta run into a new adventure. If I could have a super power it would be tied between teleporting to anyplace I have seen or seen a picture of and reading minds. I hope that when I die I can become part of the cosmos and can just watch everything. I would love to just watch a rock see all the things that happen to it. what interacts with it. Of course we talked before of my nerdy hobbies, I like miniatures and role-playing and video games. I wish I could live in a space opera or Star Wars. When I am in public, I always want to just ask those around me what they are thinking, who they think they are and who they want to be. So it was nice to be asked that myself. Thank you


I suggest everyone just sit down and write what they think about themselves. If anything it kinda feels good.

Best 
Keith

Monday, July 1, 2013

Here's some words about words.

How do you move on when you don't want to move on?

How do you let go?

I wouldn't say I am obsessed with her just that she consumes my every waking thought and everything reminds me of her.

I feel like she is dead. Okay well the fact she tells me directly that the old person she was isgone completely sorta adds to that fire. Then I guess I am no longer in love with her. Just who she used to be. It's weird to think that someone can change like that.

Maybe I was never in love with her. She was most definitely never in love with me.  

So I am now at the point where it is no longer an attachment of her specifically but more just an obsession of being obsessed. Good now maybe in a year or two it'll be out of my system and something new will fall from the sky. 



The universe rewards patience..

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Dear Keith.
Holy shit so much happened tonight.

First you woke up and had a good day. Then you went to other realms at 130 and play a great game of 40k. It was a 3v3 1000 points each. it ended on the second turn with a striaght tie. you killed 3 termies an ork truck and two mega nobs and
LOTS of incubi.

Then you went and got KFC, it's still terrible and we still hate it. We then went to Century building (it's where shaggy lives) and picked up Josh's band label PRESIDENT. We went and filmed about Josh's band practice with the President. HE FUCKING LOVES ANIME AND MACROS PLAYED 40k in the 90's.
He talked to me and Josh about his convention coming up in Novemeber and wants us to RUn the tabletop section. FUCKING A brah. On top of this he is going to make a series of scifci nitty gritty Star Warsque films and wants us to take the helm. FUCKING A BRAH

so we do the band practice and the entire band plus Josh's girlfriend end up at D&B. Shoots it was fun yeah.
Well two members leave then Josh dips, so I take Chase and Reed and the president to Kelly's we met PRES' girlfriend plus some other model that reed once went to highschool with drinks galore, we didnt have a drop.
We needed up having a deep ass convo with Chase. We get close with Pres. He really wants me making shit with him!
Drive everyone home.

Oh before we went int oKelly's there was this homeless dude, the pres bought m a hotdog and so I gave half of it to the homeless dude. He start sprouting crazy homeless dude stuff about walmart and leave his bike there and then someone stole it but that guy then got hit by a car.
well he tried getting like real money of me.

I deined him. the hot dog is enough brah.

Chase saw it and was later really impressed with me, cause I shared the hotdog and heard his story.

OH BRAH one more thing, dude at Dave and busters we met someone who recognized us from the Trojan fucking News!!! DUDE what the fuck!?!? right?


it was an amazing night!

Alright so the thing is, there is always a thing yeah.

Do we just this flashy agent guy? I don't know, this is the industry you know. I can't tell if I fear him because what he offers equals responicblity and adult hood or if I think he is shady.

I think this is the path though this is what I was waiting for and I need to make my move and take it now..



Who know, all this because I play 40k.