Every begining is another begining's end.

Dear me,

First off I hope you find your way off myspce, that place is a mess. I'm sure you'll be glad to know that facebook provides the right amount of insanity and that perfect feeling of loneliness. Also as I have previously stated that life doesn't get easier you get tougher, well let me also inform you that the problems you face now don't actually change. She simply switchs names and accents and home twons and favorite books.

There are men who will always find a girl for the night, there are men who will never really care about women, there are men who fully objectify women, and then there are men who will always be chasing after that one perfect girl, casting aside all other options only to find themselves in a continous cycle of friendzones. Well, guess which one we are? And here's the kicker it's all our fault! Trust me one day you're going to realize exactly how many girls wanted to snatch you up for your own, and by then it'll be too late. The thing is we're holding on to this idea that we need the perfect person, also we still have this wierd solidity of monogamy. That's just somthing that doesnt exist in our peer group. We try so hard to find that one girl who hold the same truths we do all while trying to play it cool, we miss the oppertunities that pass us by. In our attempts to keep every promise we ever made, we lose friends and fail our goal. Our life is one ironic twist after another.

My point is tonight I realized I will never get the one girl that had a chance of freeing me from "The Oppression of Paige OP", as you so witfully called it (yes im making fun of you you're an idoit get over it) back. It's done she's gone. The circumstances behind how and why we lost her will curse you for a very long time. Surprizingly it will only be the second largest event. I guess we did learn alittle from that summer good job.  So are we banking on 27? No. most likely not.

Give me some time, now that we know we can let go of Ana, that our promise is now null and viod and that we didnt give up on her she on us we can just accept reality and revert back into the cold ladykilling asshole we have become.

This might be the said asshole speaking but I love this stage, its when we literally say fuck everything and chase after anything and everything. I am shit we're already facebook married. It doesn't mean shit it's just a confinendce boaster. Yeah the girl is pretty cute and she fits the MO perfectly. Cute shy smart slightly off the beaten path, shes not right fit and she lives in CO.

Kid when you grow up you may realize we dont have the resolve to keep those promises to a naive little boy.

In our pursiut of personal satification, love, freedom and happiness we will destory everything we love and hold true.  We are the real life tragic hero and this is our flaw. Selfishness.


Chin up lad, and when you get to the good part remember to soak it in and hold onto it for as long as you can.  She's going to say we have the longest endurance and that just barely makes this a faction worth it.

Sincerely,
Keith

p.s
Keith Keith says "tonight you", you'll see.